Subheadings are what all the cool kids are doing.

Family I'm the oldest of five. Baby brother number 3, second from the youngest, leaves home for his early-admit orientation for college in a few weeks. He's going to the same school baby brother number 2 has attended for 3 years, and I'm less than a 15 minute drive from their campus. This kid has had serious problems with school pretty much since he started reading, and seeing him graduate, happy, with lots of friends, lots of good experiences and a few instructive mistakes, well it makes me really proud of him. He wants to be a history teacher one day.

Health: I can never ever never neglect my diet anymore. That is to say, I can indulge in crappy food, but not for multiple days in a row. And especially not when paired with alcohol. I woke up tuesday with an extra 5lbs of water hanging off me, which makes life difficult in all kinds of ways. Managed to do yoga and take a short walk regardless. I'm not sure this is healthy, but my perspective is essentially 'If you're going to feel bad, do it in a way that you can feel good about afterwards.'

Work: One of my patients wants to drop out of the study. She hadn't ever taken medication regularly before becoming involved in research and at one year on blinded study drug, she has decided she doesn't want to take pills anymore. I can't and wouldn't want to coerce someone to be in research who genuinely didn't want to be, but in this instance it feels like a childish decision, admittedly one being made by a 15 year old. I'm going to talk to her this morning, and her cardiologist is going to talk to her to confirm her decision, maybe get her to change her mind, but probably begin the process of taking her off study drug. Even if she's on placebo we don't want people to just go cold turkey, for consistencies sake.

Beyond Comfort Zone Edge Progress Report: I pushed back my baking class a few weeks. Challah seems way less important at the moment than... Not learning how to make Challah I guess. I can't tell if I'm feeling genuinely overwhelmed (A lot has happened since I got back from NYC and very little of it is really resolved), or if there's a childish element in me that just wants to petulantly leave some things broken for a while.