there's latent violence and pedophilia in the relation between men and women, and sometimes it's not quite as latent as one might like, and somebody more well-read than me could probably talk a lot about it - but my opinion is that turning child rapists into the ultimate boogeymen has the side effect of making it into the ultimate perversion. that's where the grain of truth lies in the article.

when people talk about this i am constantly reminded of this album by whitehouse where they collaborated with an open pedophile. it has a "song" on it that is just recordings of victims discussing their abuses that he got off of normal-ass news broadcasts in the 80s and 90s. the difference between that voyeurism and the voyeurism of true crime is that he's literally masturbating to it instead of just obsessing over it. you don't need to delve into the depths of the Internet to indulge in this stuff cause if you have eyes to see it, it's everywhere

bouncing to something else: there is a lot of fiction written by and targetted at women that is truly heinous, and i understand the impulse behind writing and reading it. if i write a porny story about being assaulted by a doctor or being thrown in men's prison, i am defusing that fear in myself of being repeatedly screwed over by the people that keep my people down. people are drawn to the stuff that is over the line for the exact reason that there's a line to cross.

i just worry that anti-sex measures will fuel the fires of fetishization. the purest creeps are the ones who can veil it. it disturbs me that we can draw a line and say that an 18 year old is an acceptable target for your average Leo Dicaprio and a 17 year old isn't, or that buying a girl drinks to make it easier to fuck her is normal but paying her directly isn't, or on and on - and the more i stare into it, the more i start feeling like one of those second wave ladies who say that all sex is rape, which is concerning when my takeaway is still in the end a sex-positive one

i have no point in this other than i don't know where we socially go from here, and sometimes it scares me