Being a grownup sucks
Wow. Just, wow. This is such a big song. This deserves to be heard. I have no badges. If I had badges this would get them. Such honesty. Such a pretty vocal delivery too. I can really hear you in this. Your songs are always gorgeous but sometimes the vocals are so layered the individual lead vocal is not distinguishable. I hear you so well. I love that. This is amazing work. You need to release an album. You’ve got the songs and they’re stunning. You were meant to make music. You are gifted. This is among my Doritos if yours. Edit: Had to keep the original, but hopefully you realize I meant “this is one of my favorites of yours.” Also, the lyrics man. Wow. Just wow. I’d love to see them printed there are spots I cant suss out. I love this song. We are all just “trying.” Thanks for this one. I connect hard core to it. lil I think you’d dig this one.
Thanks, TNG. This was a tough one to make both in terms of subject matter and stylistics- didn't feel right masking the vocals in a bunch of layers and effects because it made it sound too fortified. But it's tough for me to just let the voice stand out above the mix, esp. when the lyrics are so brutal. Really glad you like it. It's one of my Doritos too. Lyrics as follows: Looking into the darkness, is this all that a life is series of bad decisions, in and out of remission driving back from the hospital I see the kids in the park on the benches, smoking cigarettes in the sunlight- what's that ahead of you? pushing my way into the crush of folks at the grocery- tryn ta get to the parsley- no one here really knows me- meeting eyes at the counter, looking for a connection: "have you tried our new version?" I don't know how to answer. all I want is a sign that I will be well-remembered nothing can bring you down like talking to perfect strangers. home again, maybe I should call my folks out in Portland- how long now has it been since I've been out there to see them? last time, I was a mess, I was dealing with the tail end of a breakdown and taking pills to help in the morning pills in the morning to keep me going looking into the darkness, is this all that a life is: in and out of the workplace, waiting for your vacation like to think that my workmates find me easy to talk with make a joke, keep your distance- gotta keep up relations oh my god, how'd this happen? feels like I'm disappearing- I had strength of conviction! focus, artistic vision! meeting eyes at the counter, trying to make a connection: "what'd you do with your weekend?" I don't care, but you know I'm trying maybe I'll call my brothers, tell them all that I love them thinking about the last time that we were all together. I should water the plants and put them out in the sunlight- this is all that we have now- blow a kiss, grow your garden into eternity
It’s Cool Ranch man. It’s that good. The tough ones are always the best ones. I have a close friend that is an amazing singer/songwriter. All of his albums are beautifully arranged and perfectly produced. But it’s always the one song that he’s vulnerable on that is clearly the best on each album. Now if he could just make a full length album with that much vulnerability, he’d be on to something. I like your voice on this. You should work to have it more out front like this, but that doesn’t mean you can’t have rich and layered backing vocals. The lyrics are superb. I relate heavily to them. I think I’m probably better than most at the relating with strangers thing, but it is still alarmingly lonely when the majority of your interactions are “how about the weather..” I too feel like I’m losing myself. Like I’m disappearing. There’s a ton of inertia behind some of the choices I’ve made. No turning back now. It’s scary stuff. But, we’ve got this and we aren’t going anywhere. Keep making music like this and you’ll never disappear, my friend. I couldn’t like this song any more than I do. It’s the tops. Full on Dorito. Onward!This was a tough one to make both in terms of subject matter and stylistics- didn't feel right masking the vocals in a bunch of layers and effects because it made it sound too fortified. But it's tough for me to just let the voice stand out above the mix, esp. when the lyrics are so brutal.
I imagine that very, very many of your interactions these days are with strangers. And that can be fine, but spending too much time away from one's household/community and loved ones really grinds a person down. I'm sure you feel that acutely. But maybe you have to disappear a little in order to build something bigger than yourself? Or maybe that sense of fading, if it doesn't swallow you, acts as a motivator to make a lasting mark. I dunno. It's tough to balance. You're building something huge, though! Onward! I'ma start using "Dorito" as my new signifier for greatness. It is, after all, the ultimate snack
Lyrics ^ and they’re wonderful. I relate so much to them.