I wanted to record music last night but was too lazy to set up any of the gear. Still needing to scratch my creative itch, I decided to write this....My point is, that I try and have many avenues to create with

Here's how I see your various forms of expression. Tell me if I'm right.

The Podcasts

tngpodcasts are creatively challenging and involve multiple modalities. I know a little about your process having participated in a few of these with you. First there's finding the right idea. Then finding participants and getting them to send you audio. This is fun and social. You love hearing all the voices. Then the real creativity is in your arrangement of the available material, creating a narrative structure that flows from one voice to another. You structure this partly by your questions, but you do not know what you will get until the voices come in. Then the fun fun fun of finding appropriate music. It's a lot of work, but satisfying in getting you to use all these different skills.

Creating and Recording Music

This is probably your first love -- I don't know what your process is, whether you first have the idea, the music, the words or whether they all come together when you start recording. My guess is that you hear music in your mind and heart and have the technical ability to create the sounds and record them. It's satisfying because you can create amazing pieces of music that express love and wonder and sadness and mystery, like this - and, best of all, you never know who you will meet and how your life will change by simply posting a Higgs-Boson song.

Short Memoirish Fiction

Then occasionally you share a little of yourself in prose. These pieces try to capture the experience as directly and descriptively as you can. Writing allows you to be more present even if your narrator is fictional. While the music is great, stories help open a person up. They do something else too, that I don't think music does -- writing a story allows you to let it go out to the world. You don't have to carry it around any more. Experiences like putting down your lab is put into a story. It is safe there and you can visit it whenever you want to. In this story you share the uncomfortable discovery that, while eating fish is fine, you do not want to have to kill them yourself. You don't even want to hurt a worm. Your dad's words at the end (and the title) are comforting for both you and the reader.

My guess is that you will keep pulling out memories and moments from time to time and write these stories, for you, for your daughter, and the rest of us.