I just need to vent for a sec, is that cool with you guys? Great, thanks.
Issue one - my family's shitty old desktop is having hard drive issues, which everyone knows are the worst kind of issues because they sometimes lead to lost files. Earlier this evening when I tried to power it on it didn't start up properly, and when I tried using startup repair it failed. The next step was system recovery, but there was an error with that too so I'm basically fucked. Neither my sister nor I kept substantial backups. So that sucks, and I'm pretty stressed about the file recovery process / extra expense of fixing the computer or getting a new one.
Issue two - remember that girl I was sort of secretly dating before she broke things off so I should probably call her my ex but I can't bring myself to? Yeah, not actually over her. I was mostly OK because we cut off contact, but a couple days ago she texted me just asking how I was doing and we talked for a while (I couldn't resist). Then we talked some more the next day, and by the end of that it was clear that I totally still had feelings for her.
Then today a group of friends including her and me hung out at a pool for a couple hours, which was great and fun, but also weird because I think she was sort of acting like she might want to get back together? I won't go into specific behaviors except for the best standalone example - when we hugged as I was leaving (like everyone does in this friend group) her hand lingered on my arm for a few seconds and I'm pretty sure it meant something maybe.
But also I have a history of convincing myself that girls I'm into have the same feelings for me, so this might all be total bullshit. I'll see her again tomorrow, so I guess I'll let y'all know how that goes.
Oh, and I forgot to mention: even though I still like her, I've resolved not to pursue her / tell her unless she initiates just because of our history, and I also think if she does initiate I'll make it clear that I can't deal with another secret relationship.
TL;DR A few minutes ago I watched Glee out of the blue and during the epic closing number I jumped up and danced wildly while singing along to random pieces of the song. Then I collapsed into a chair. That's pretty much indicative of my emotional state this evening.
Vent away, chief. Venting is good. 'k MOVING ON So Thing1 is that a nasty obnoxious thing humans do is they fuck with the people they care about. So like when you've had a tumultuous relationship with someone but you've both moved on but neither of you has completely moved on but you sort of suspect that maybe that other person has moved on more than you and that makes you feel bad because they're winning the moving on game and you're losing and the only way to make yourself feel better is to flirt with them and act like maybe you don't want to move on to see if they crumble and act like they don't want to move on and see they haven't moved on as much as you moved on so now you can get back to texting Jeremy with your integrity intact. Misogynists will suggest that this is something girls do, which is bullshit. Girls will just cop to it. My best friend for pushing 30 years torments the fuck out of his exes this way, and it's usually when his most current ex has given him the boot. That's right. He jerks the chain of the chick two chicks back because the last chick is jerking his. And he's a grown fucking man. Owns a half-million-dollar condo and shit. Teenaged humans are even worse. So don't succumb. Whatever feelings you may have for this chick are putting you at a serious disadvantage. GO TAP SOMETHING ELSE. If nothing else, it increases your stock value and market positioning. Best advice? Hang out somewhere public with a hot chick that isn't into you and that you aren't into. Nothing brings out the beauties like a safety girl. Thing 2 is that sinking feeling? That you get? When your data? Like, goes away? And you can't get it back? And you try and you try? But it just gives you the finger? The minute you restore your data from a decent backup that feeling is YOUR BITCH forever. Probably too late now. HD Recovery is stupid expensive and very few things work (although my dad did manage to get a couple hundred MB off a nuked platter using the freezer trick). But for next time (and there will be a next time), BAKDAFUKUP. I've already managed to restore 140GB worth of iTunes files, beyotch. (Can you afford to spend $1900 on backup drives? No. Of course not. Do you need 24TB of RAID 6? Also of course not. But all your mission-critical shit oughtta be in the cloud anyway and any schmo can afford Dropbox) TL;DR fuck Glee watch your ass some Madoka Magika
That is on the line between dick move and totally understandable. Wow. That's great, but I know like 2 hot girls and neither well enough to hang out with them alone. Also I'm crazy inexperienced - this girl was the first I dug that reciprocated ever, and I told her I liked her in a game of truth or dare (fuckin' past me, man). I've tried, I just... I don't really like anime that much (don't hate me eightbit)that makes you feel bad because they're winning the moving on game and you're losing and the only way to make yourself feel better is to flirt with them and act like maybe you don't want to move on to see if they crumble and act like they don't want to move on
Nothing brings out the beauties like a safety girl.
watch your ass some Madoka Magika
Hey for file recovery try testdisk (free from cgsecurity) as long as it's not completely hardware related it works wonders. take out the drive attach to external enclosure attach drive to laptop run testdisk go through the options pray
also the freezer trick kleinbl00 mentioned has fixed a few problems. Then remember the system admins zen mantra "If it is important it is backed it up, if it is unimportant I have lost nothing"
If that hard disk also has your operating system on it try using it as a storage drive for another computer. Lots of times the disk is too screwed up to run the OS but it will give up some of the data. You might need to buy a hard drive encloshure if you don't have the necessary spare parts around to mount it for another PC. I'm 2 for three at saving other people's data this way. If It's not the OS drive you are in trouble.
Oh mensch. Rationally and impersonally, go for the don't-think-about-it approach. Being too cool for school and genuinely basing your actions on what you want, independent of one lady, is the best, or at leaster better, bet, better than obsessing or secretly mind willing a person to requite your feelings. This is advice I would also like to follow myself.